waiting

i've never been a very patient person. when i know i have to wait, i acquiesce. like i did when i was pregnant. i knew i didn't have a choice, so i waited....patiently. and as many pregnant women will agree, the last few weeks are just plain torture. i've heard it said that the reason you feel so uncomfortable the last month of pregnancy is to motivate you through labor.  patience is a virtue.

so that kind of waiting is ok. waiting to hear if you're accepted to a school is along those same lines. there is a schedule that is followed and you just try to ignore time creeping by. it's the waiting where there isn't a schedule, where you're dependent on another person, that i have the hardest time managing. it could be about a job, a new person in your life, a special opportunity. the early bird catches the worm.

i come from a place where if you want something, and even if the timing isn't optimum, you act. you seize the moment because that moment may not come again. i'm afraid of missing opportunities, chances, people. i try not to second guess my decisions - usually.  i have to learn to be a little more patient in these situations, but who's going to want something for you more than you?

wwcd: carpe diem