i drank the kool-aid

this is the first time since starting the blog that i've taken a whole week off. i haven't been on vacation, but doing a lot of thinking. so many different ideas for the blog have come to mind, but i haven't really felt like writing. part of what i'm feeling is selfishness. feeling pulled in too many directions and trying to keep promises i've made to myself. i know one of those promises has been to write. unfortunately, that has not gotten my attention this week. neither has speaking with friends and i'm trying to make up for that this weekend.

i've certainly kept up with being mom, since that is the nonnegotiable first priority, and of course the craziness at work. i'm happy to say that the commitment i've made to put me first is still working too. getting myself out of bed to either walk, climb stairs or do sit ups is still happening daily. so is only eating organic, meatless, balanced and healthy meals. besides me, candle 79 is definitely reaping the benefit of my commitment. if i could only learn how to cook that way...

it's said that to change a negative behavior takes practicing the new behavior for several weeks. i think it's more about making the mental commitment first and the repetition comes second. it's also about being serious and honoring the promise. for me, this time has meant rethinking my actions, planning my time and our menus, and enjoying the whole process. even enjoying it when i'm tired and would rather lie on the couch and call in for dinner. it's about making short term goals, celebrating them and continuing to focus on the long term goals. and it's also about thanking your guardian angel.

wwcd: it's about making yourself an important part of your life